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The day I decided to stop feeling sorry for myself and started making changes in myself was the day I found freedom. After pregnancy I didn’t even know who I was. I had spent my life feeling pretty good about myself, knowing I was attractive and felt confident I could do anything, go anywhere and be liked by people. Having my son changed everything for me. I loved him more than anything in the world but my confidence was shaken to the core and I feared I would never be the mom I wanted so badly to be.
It was a mind trip. I had people that were so happy for me.. asking me how happy I was… I lied. I was so scared to tell people how miserable I was after London was born… I felt like they would judge me for being superficial and shallow when I had a perfect baby boy and should be happy. I was also afraid my son would never know the person I was before he was born and had no idea how to function. I wanted to hide in my house and not let anyone in.
I was at the gym once again 165 lbs, size 12… busting my booty to try to fit into the size 10s jeans that I bought near the middle of my pregnancy. I was fed up, discouraged and sick of standing in the back of the room- I am a front of the room kinda girl. I used to love meeting new people, interacting, making people laugh. I used to love being in the action and felt confident at the front of a room, and I felt like somehow I was being punished for it. I heard about a p90x class and the instructor told me about shakeology- I was ready to try anything. Scared to death I signed up- FOR EVERYTHING. P90X, Shakes… even “coaching” for a disconut on product and to sell the program to a few friends. I was totally committed to losing the weight or I would die trying. Within 30 days I had lost 15 lbs, 2 sizes and countless inches. I was so fired up and talking to everyone about the products that were giving me hope again. After 90 days I looked like my old self again- but better (and smaller)! I was also building a business along side my body, using my results and passion to simply share with others what anyone can do when someone believes in them. Then, after 180 days I was in a size 2. I had told friends for years that being “small” was not in the cards for me- I thought I was just a “curvy girl,” and content with that. Now I wanted to look like an athlete, because I felt like one! I have energy, vitality, confidence and the joy that comes from knowing and loving yourself because you know you are having significance in the lives that God has richly blessed you with. Now it’s my turn to bless you. I want to give you the hope and direction that I was given. It’s not easy, it’s hard work.. but it’s worth the struggle, worth the time and worth the pain. It’s a productive struggle that will change you inside and out and the cool thing is you don’t do it alone. This journey is not about being in perfect shape or looking a certain way- it’s about becoming the best YOU that you can be. I want to be an amazing Mom, wife, sister, daughter and friend possible. I want my son to know who he is and have all the confidence that I can give in him form day one. I want to have significance in the lives of people around me. Will you allow me to be part of your journey? Let’s get started!